I am going to miss the heck out of Kasey. They were always there for me and it still feels so hard to understand that they're truly gone. We spoke almost every day so to go from that to nothing at all really grounds in me how real all of this is, as much as I don't want to believe it. I told them many times how much I admired them but I wish I'd have said it more often anyway. They struggled so much and they were so damn strong to keep going no matter what. While I'm glad that now they finally get peace and can find happiness in whatever comes after death, I wish it didn't have to be this way. They loved ducks like anything and I remember them telling me they would be happy to live as one so, in a way, I'd like to think they were reincarnated as one. Any time I see a duck, my mind automatically goes to Kasey and, even if it's silly, I think to myself "What if it's them?". They taught me so much about ducks that I never knew. I never knew what a Smew even was, let alone what it looked like, but they sent me pictures of them to show me how beautiful they are and it's true - they're gorgeous ducks. I really wish Kasey was still here, as much as I know that it's selfish of me to wish for. I still find myself opening Snapchat to message them and then having that harsh reminder that they're not there. I'd give anything to have them back, healthy and happy, but I suppose that life can't always work that way. They meant so much to me, more than I ever said, and I can only sit and wish I'd have told them how important they were to me. I truly hope that, wherever their soul is now, they can be happy and at peace.